ah today's the first day of school.
how was it?
hmm, mixed feelings.
ah don't feel like writing anything yet.
(:
navigate using the bars above
1 2 3 4
by Plain White T's
1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)
Y O U T U B E L O V E
potter puppet pals!
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P R O F I L E
jessica (:
17 now! (:
NUS High
17 now! (:
NUS High
hey (: My name is jessica. jessica loves her FAMILY , M07306/ M08406, M09504 , FARADAY , COUNCIL '09 and her NEAs. Most importantly, LIVERPOOL! especially Gerrard, Torres and NUS High Girls' Soccer .
S I X T E E N
RANDOM SONGS
RANDOM SONGS
well, for now.
ONE My Life - Billy Joel
TWO Each Day Gets Better - John Legend
THREE Kiss a Girl - Keith Urban
FOUR You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
FIVE I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
SIX Better In Time -Leona Lewis
SEVEN Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
EIGHT Augustana - Boston
NINE More than words - Extreme
T O D O L I S T
*To be updated*
*to be updated*
T A G B O A R D
yakkity yak yak
7:16 PM - Wednesday, June 30, 2010
6:26 PM - Monday, June 28, 2010
i should have been more sensible.
what is this girl?
what have all these experiences through these 18 years made you become?
i ought to learn this lesson.
i ought to toughen myself in this context.
i need to.
for you.
.jess.
10:47 AM - Sunday, June 27, 2010
and 25 June marked a new beginning (:
feels good to be in the comfort of friends again.
i never want to be foolish anymore.
I had this talk with sri and han, and i started to realize why. Thanks sri for all that valuable insight (: I'll always remember them!
I tell you I'm so going to miss sri when he goes to UK. I bet all of us will (:
12:32 AM - Thursday, June 24, 2010
Hahah reading my previous post makes me realize what a wimp I am at times.
I realize I'm such a strongheaded individual, which has its pros and cons.
Not giving up doesn't prove to be beneficial all the time.
Let's see, these 2 days out of Singapore has actually sent me into a new mood.
Pretty interesting how the change started. I was just looking at the clouds throughout the journey, and my mood just changed. I felt myself opening up and thinking on a larger scale. I maintained my positive outlook, brainwashed myself on how things can still stay the same, but suddenly somehow I just realized, omg I still can't let go. It's worse when I place myself in the shoes of others and realize how much of a pain I can be and there you are still keeping me by your side.
Hahaha pretty funny how it sounds to me.
And then all the uncertainty about uni life just seemed solved.
All the thoughts I had to share with my parents just came naturally. and they were really understanding.
But just this thing, it's impossible to share.
argh.
can't share it with anyone, i'll just have to pull myself out of this, soon hopefully! cause things won't be able to go back to what it used to be, and I just have to accept that fact.
Many a times I realized, it's not that people do not realize, it's more like we don't want to accept the reality staring straight in your face.
Makes sense? I think so (:
stay happy girl, life will be better than before, when the wound heals!
.jess.
12:37 PM - Monday, June 21, 2010
I wonder how I landed myself in such a mess.
I'm supposed to be strong, girl. I should just stick to my strong outer core.
I feel defeated.
And to think that last year would be the end of miseries.
Don't like feeling this way. I hope I had a choice. The accumulation of all these stuff just leave me hanging on the edge.
Friends.
What's the real meaning of it?
Sorrow perhaps.
I should break free from this fantasy. After all, life's a cruel thing. Everytime I feel like putting my guard down, I feel so at ease. I feel like it was all meant to be that way, but before I know it, there I am treating my wound.
Growing up seemed easy. But now I'm sure it isn't. Though the experiences are worthwhile (: I don't want to end up at the age of 40 and realizing all these sour facts. But perhaps then, the pain would be less severe?
Really hope to turn things back to the start and hold on to my rock wall.
If you had a choice to turn things back, what would you change?
I think the only difference for me would be to learn to protect myself from falling.
But after all, no matter how you revert things, it will never go back to it's original state. Blame it on the second law of thermodynamics, ever increasing entropy. Hahaha, just kidding.
Ah this post looks so messed up.
I just want to say sorry.
Especially to the people who trusted that I could lead my life well.
I fall.
I grow.
I learn.
I live.
Alright, enough of the sorrow, I'm pretty excited for school to reopen actually! Sometimes going back to school keeps your mind off stuff. And it gives me hope, something to look forward too!
For now, I would say it's graduating and moving into early adulthood (:
Suddenly the responsibilities that I've to hold to take charge of my life seems to shine right above me. I'm pretty excited to take on the challenges! (Hope this spirit remains :D)
Yay, looking to improve my skills and knowledge in many areas, and hopefully enter a course that I will not regret in university. I'm thankful of the many opportunities present to me currently!
And so, I want to get back my smile.
The smile which brings out who I am.
Time will close up the wounds I'm sure, even though it will never heal. But thanks for the support my friend.
I'll not let you down mum, dad, grandma, godpa.
I'll find strength on my own.
I'll stand up with my courage.
I'll succeed.
(Tears do not make you weak. They just take your weakness away.)
.jess.
7:16 PM - Monday, June 14, 2010
And time has passed mercilessly again.
Suddenly I wish I had that magic sand in 'Prince of Persia' and I could turn back time to the start of this year and replay some parts of my life.
If I had known things would have worked out as it would, I wouldn't have jumped into that illusion right at the start.
So many things to bother about and keep in mind. Maybe it's the 'hangover effect' from last year. The change in outlook.
I found it easier to stay optimistic back then. Perhaps I was a sailing ship out in the ocean, perhaps I thought I saw hope amidst the choppy waves, perhaps it was all just a delusion. Now I'm back on my own. Thanks for being that temporary lifesaver though. Thanks for giving me a beautiful dream.
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