Hahah reading my previous post makes me realize what a wimp I am at times.
I realize I'm such a strongheaded individual, which has its pros and cons.
Not giving up doesn't prove to be beneficial all the time.
Let's see, these 2 days out of Singapore has actually sent me into a new mood.
Pretty interesting how the change started. I was just looking at the clouds throughout the journey, and my mood just changed. I felt myself opening up and thinking on a larger scale. I maintained my positive outlook, brainwashed myself on how things can still stay the same, but suddenly somehow I just realized, omg I still can't let go. It's worse when I place myself in the shoes of others and realize how much of a pain I can be and there you are still keeping me by your side.
Hahaha pretty funny how it sounds to me.
And then all the uncertainty about uni life just seemed solved.
All the thoughts I had to share with my parents just came naturally. and they were really understanding.
But just this thing, it's impossible to share.
argh.
can't share it with anyone, i'll just have to pull myself out of this, soon hopefully! cause things won't be able to go back to what it used to be, and I just have to accept that fact.
Many a times I realized, it's not that people do not realize, it's more like we don't want to accept the reality staring straight in your face.
Makes sense? I think so (:
stay happy girl, life will be better than before, when the wound heals!
.jess.